walking home....my fave pic of the night 

Y.M.C.A. -- don't tell anyone 

being tired 

outside bend :)...Sebi, Ashlin and me after an hour or so of dancing..why i lean forward? dunno. don't ask. i prolly coulnd't answer 

a grinch...he's one of my fave people...so, we musta been talking about something :), something gross 

Meg, Me, Ashlin and Sebi...a weird group pic from Fat Mo's: a dancy-music place we went after the karaoke. There were some good and soem pretty bad tunes..but it was dancing, people, it was dancing!! 

post

i really don't have time to post things are not cheap, short or stupid.

i really would have the time to do so, since I stay up late and have, fortunately, some time to be online enough.

i really can't get myself writing. i feel so NOT TOGETHER, or at least my thoughts, that I can't find where to begin, how to continue and where to end.

there are some weird things happening, tho.

first off: my big plan of forgetting him, and leaving my infatuation behind me is sorta working. i think. this is what i'm telling to myself. :) i pretend to be hurt by him every day, tho it's not real hurt....the hurt is deeper, it's coming from somewhere else...from a lomng-long time ago....and i...Well, im honaetly not sure if it's ever gonna be healed. it's not like a cut the scar of which is ............ gotta go now.

let's hope im gonna continue..it would be really good.

some notes from my notebook written in Italy

these notes are pretty disturbing.....

fromItalia – Workhop

Workshop 1 – integrated
Workshop 2 – Dark Side

April Prog: show
22+ 1 (me)
voices/sounds
how different can one be
to bring down the walls

- express self
- create emotions
- political ---- in every day life

realize the boundaries and the every day life and bring down the walls
- how else if it’s not working

Italo Calvino

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Sono qui. Non posso parlare and yet...Im gettin more courageous as the day goes on.

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• no direzione / contribuzioni

giusto

differenzie inevitabili

• camminando – neutrale
• movimento / gesto: con un intenzione ----) sviluppare
• dimostrare & rispondere con un altro gesto ---) seconda di base di stesso interpretazione
• fare qualcosa con la sete ma non siedersi

neutrale//intenzione
entrare il palcoscenico

ARTE BENESSERE

NUOVO / SOCIALE
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I’m thinking in a different language now.
Different from what?
Is it different at all?

There are things I like. And of course, things I don’t. As all all else.

Per esempio, non mi piace questo testo.

E piu difficile per me adesso a scrivere e pensare in inglese perché ora sono in Itali e spendo molto tempo con gli italiani.
Mi preoccupa nonostante che io non posso parlare fluently.

Letting go – easy advice. Easy to give, easy to take, if you are preoccupied with the very ?it? that should be let go.
Who were the ones I let go? Haha…..
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Is it easier to be creative when you are depressed?
Non lo so.
Non lo so.
Nem tudom.

…the concept of having many languages to speak but not having my words heard is……is rather mysterious per me.

Confused………..I am confused.

Voglio fare troppe cose.

I had no experience. What’s so

What happened?
Why and how did I let things happen?

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FRAGMENTED.
DISLOCATED.
INSPIRED.
SEEKING.
MISUNDERSTOOD. ---) NOT UNDERSTOOD
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Today I have written a shitload of stupidity nella mia blog.

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I'm cold. I’m cold. Recently I’m cold many times. This coldness is rarely a physical one.

This sentence is bad.

I have no fears now.
For a long time.

Scattered.
Fragmented.

CAN’T concentrate.
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CONFUSION
EMPTINESS
LEVITATION
LIGHT
NO FEARS
DIRECTION
SHOCK?
NON-UNDERSTANDING
LAUGHTER
SORRY / REGRET
SADNESS
ANGER
JEALOUSY
HONESTY
FEAR
ACCEPTED FEAR
LONELINESS
EMPTINESS
COMPLETE

SEEKER

I hate and I already lied.

It bugs me to confess that he had right when he described me like that.
A DESPERATE SEEKER
With all the possible
POSITIVE & NEGATIVE
Qualities / meanings of it.

Bugs me that he could see & verbalize it & bugs me that it bugs me
That now , or ever since rather, I get to this conclusion
What is it? How to deal with it?
“deal” with it at all?
ACCEPT! YEAH, actually is accepted but then.

The scholarship is a great opportunity but also a burden
BEC. YOU HAVE TO COME BACK.
Not necessarily to Hungary ---)
but life

GROWING UP. GROW UP.

_ _ _ _ _
I’m drawing lines. Lines that are directed towards something. Interesting to see that my lines don’t contradict each other. Which I do. Do i?

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Live Yor Own Life.
Thoughts about art.

Communicating meaning, message

Educating people __art not to descend to the level of people, but people to be educated

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what's gonna happen tomorrow?
what's gonna happen tomorrow?

Ari's friend, Luana and me at teh Palazzo Tozzoni in Imola...well, Meg, if you said Hungarian women are so nice looking all the time..you should have seen the Italian women...while not all of tehm are always on the top, but the majority has that kinda thing for them. made up, nicely dressed, very stylish and defiant. tho not all of them are like that, but..but many. and how they party! well, like all the other young people in the world. but ...hmm..Italian disco is not really for me, however, there was a lot less tuc-tuc electronic music, more like Italian pop-rock. huh! 

the donkey bridge...man, it's steep --i wonder how they did it! and how could they climb it! 

me at the Halloween reading :) 

an orphanage and hospital 

well, can't be seen to much but...the two short white lines up by the left column facing you right now shows how hisg the water flodded the building during teh huge flood in 1966. we happened to visit the church on the exact day but 39 years later. a lotta artifacts got ruined..and just ..its just insane 

huge! 

they've been resoting many things in most of the churches we went to...while they too the painting to work on it, they didn't cover this spot at the Santa Croce...and how right they were, this, by showin the different bricks and stones, is a article to show in itself 

on the street of Firenze....there were so many tourists..I heard American, German from everywhere..compared to the Bologna, it was crazy 

from the Ponte Vecchio 

bella, e? 

the light, the ever shining light 

let me introduce: David 

look at this piece of art..incredible 

tourists gathered in front of the church in FLorence 

Firenze..or in English, Florence 

 

a rehearsal of Dark Side..the other group Marina and Corrado are working with..they are now preparing for a show about the EARTH...fire, parfume/small, passion, emptiness, fears, love, birth... 

a tattoo place 

gate of Bologna