an explanation to the pix

so, there are some weird adn funny faces - btw, why am i on alomst all the pictures with either Meg (girl), Sebi (mr. piskles) or Adam (NY hat)?

anyways: so there are some pix from the movie night adn teh after-walk craziness. we organize movie nights at people's apts ona awekely basis. we get together and watch american series. desperate housewives and father of the pride are the winners. it's good..i'd rather have something more communicative! but this is what it is...teh pictures on teh bridge were tkaen while we were walking home. oh, the foolish guys! they're loveley by the way. a friend asked me to take one of them with me back to the states in a suitcase! well, it can happen....just tell em more about how you like them or if you don't at all! we can do a poll!:)

the second set is from the karaoke night which was in exchange for teh movie night we couldnt pull together this week. and it was soooo great! a lotta pepl came, the musci was, well, the music wqasa karaoke. we sang a song together as the representative body - turn around, every now and then i get a little bit.....blablabalbla....and i let loose. it was great. and thank god, there were some other folks who wanted to dance too! :) next time: we go to a place where we can dance! meg promised me that! ;)

and then today's program included sushi. it was a bit weird, cuz the place we went to primarily had all you can eat type of service, but in the end we did get to have sushi...gosh, i love it! i need more practice with the chopsticks, tho! :)

a different aspect of teh night 

an aspect of the night 

after Backstreet Boys 

during Backstreet Boys 

Kata and Gabor...before Bckstreet Boys 

Karaoke - the Student Body Rep.s in action 

funny 

scary 

killing the hedgehog 

Sam, my movie/film/sthg girl :) 

oh, here are some pix from teh movie nights we organize 

fave 

a quote: Damn, your friend is hot! bring him back to the states in your suitcase! ...well..... 

scaffold 

 

oh, Meg! :) 

shadowing 

 

isnt it beautiful? 

tree-ing 

Sebi and Me 

the other side 

me over Meg :) 

the arches 

why procrastination is a commonly practiced activity?

i went to a great, great event the other night: it's called raypainting. they project paintings on the walls of buildings. it was great. there was some great musci,traditional food and drinks (well, actually they ran out of waht we call boiled wine, but still), and some great music. - well, i have a friend who'd oppose, but I still think that the African tunes were pretty good in accompanying the lights and jsut the crowd in general.
thanks to Sebi for being a geek...had he not told me about it, I wouldn't have gone. he imed me soon after my mum and I got back form IKEA (which actually had some real good stuff again, as usual). he got me inviting Meg too and there we went. it was a real nice nite out. agosh, we were such kids...

later we bused over to Meg's place. her roommate had soem friedns over. one of them is bit of a jerk, but ..actually, giving some time to think about him and his ways, i have to say, i don't really care.

what I do...or, oh well, I did care about was this talk flirty and i had the yesterday. he is not to be reffered to as flirty any longer tho. he's a kiddo. and his ways to react to my comments the other day just further prove how immature he is. oh, grrrhhh, how frustrated he made me feel and how angry i am at myself for actually having even these intense feelings. it really is not importanta at all - I cant help if he cant understand teasing. i hate being misinterpreted, and tho i offer occasions for that to happe, i know and i should change some things so that this wont happen - but still...what bugs me is that to a stupid sentences of letting the little devils out and work (which was a total compliment towards their enthusiasm), his reaction is what he was. obviously, he has a problem with the age and the maturity....omg! Vivien, stop making an issue out of it! obviously, he is important to me...but not going to be any longer. i should've just gone with my decision from before: namely that this is not what it is.
anyways: tonite we have ameeting, and I have decided to cut back..to cut back on the niceties and the fun-puns. if we're not on the same page, then Im just gonna read on.

otherwise: i should've submitted an online assignment. and then i should've get my content page done for my thesis. then i should've gone an pick up the tickets for the performance. and what else?? i cant even think of all teh shit i'd need to do and im jsut not doing.

btw: listen to Pedro the Liona dn My Morning Jacket, they rock!

i got some good news from Jessie the otehr day...or sorry, im like acting selfish.

anyways....its, again, a pretty fragmented post...why? dunno. trying to be consistent and then things are jsut coming to my mind, and for some reason my hands are just following my mind. its pretty weird, if im paying more attention to it, i can actually realize that im not even thinking ahead but this is my hands writing. cool! and creepy! :)

in the next hour, cuz that's how muchi got left befor i need to leave for work, this is what im going to do:
- since I am not a jerk: Im gonna look for the noted for Adam..and probably I may even put them in my bag and give it to him tonight.
- I finish this post and put soemthing up on the Hungarian site, too, cuz i have uploaded the pictures adn I dont jus t want to leave them hanging there.
- i send an email to Ashlin. im being a slacker in that too. i really should've done it before....however, nobody has gotten back to me with their schedules, so im getting a) pretty pissed, b) dubious about their commitment.
- gonna think...in the meantime and for ever.

friday the powers around felt it important to get a lot of people contact me and let me know that they either miss me or just about stuff in general. which is fine, it was fine..but pretty tough too.im trying hard not to analyzie myself and me being homw and how this whole things comes together. if it comes at all....im feeling fine,. there's nothing wrong with my life here. i just feel like ...i keep myself busy..or at least trying to. or..am i just talking about it??

im looking forward to going to Italy. i have high hopes about what's gonna happen there. maybe nothing extraordinary..especially if i cant get myself understood.. shoot, my italian sucks. its gonna be a lotta fun to attempt to brush it up with Aristide. he's waiting for me to speak English..which is fine, but hopefully i'll have the chance to do work in Italian.

keywords

so, not being able to fall asleep have found me posting a pretty long paragraph about some things that bug me nowadays. like my feelings about the Mitch thing, and the drama circle.

abtou Mitch: well, i dont want to vent abotu it again. it is what it is. i think waht i think and i wont pursue anything any more. he can get info through certan channeld we both know - im sure he actually does, and yet, if he doesnt feel like to contact me -- his bad. and by the way, i hate to say but the EMBER's explanation (w and stuff) - well, i just cant take it. cuz again: we are adults. period.

be cont....now im fading:)

drama

got disctracted by my other blog (the hungarian one), so only briefly -- why? cuzin less than 2 hours i want to get up! why? cuz im crazy and have someone on my mind and i am playing with thoughts i shouldnt be.

anyways.

every day when my mum is already gone for work and I'm by myslef at the apt since i'm home, i have the same morning routine: i go and turn on the radio, then switch on teh lights and the fan in teh bathroom, then walk back to the room to put on either the bonnaroo cd or Jessie's mix...- i dont like the msuci thats coming from the radio here...all teh same stupid songs....i rarely listen to the radio since im back - ...in the meanwhile i try not to be spotted by anyone who may look in through our windows. then i push up the volume and take a shower. i like these moments. so calming, so for me alone. i rememebr the moments when i was standing in teh shower at vernon: there was one particular way to put my hadns up to the showerhead and then teh water would flow down in one stream. perfect. showering here involves a lot more work from my side - life here involves a lot more work from my side. to take and stand as the water flows...i like to shower.

today we have the first meeting of teh drama group. well, not the first, but sorta. im gonna need to see howmany people are really up for this. especially becasue there are all these amazing things happening: I met up with this Am playwright who would be interested in working with us on this production - he'd write something, or wold help me put together the scipt. also, Sam, the American girl (who worked for TV/FILm for 8 years)..so with her, we are planning on doing a theater/film collaboration.

and i'm going to Italy. :)

i sound extremeyl positive now: should've ehard me last night. i got disappointed again. or not really disappointed, but more like....felt lost again. and swimming. with the flow. in the flow. i'm having hard tiesm woking with the fact that there are only a few people i can share my thoguths with. or no. its nt true. it has always been the case..more or less. i just feel alone with what i have chosen to do. adn while i have no problem with being alone with this - i have practice in that, ages long practice, it still hurts sometimes.
actually, now that i think it through again: it really is the same as it was,a dn as i haev always felt.with the exception that now the "few" - except for one, yet - are really existing fews. gosh, otherwise how could i have spent like 5 hrs talking to one of them??!!!

oh, and yet againa new project: a play - that's gonna come together :)

and in the meanwhile: thesis..or something like that! ;-)

buddies

this past weekedn was awful - i don't remember being this ill for a long while.

i was to go to the library to pick up the language coursebook i was to write about for th eadvanced grammar class, but since the internet died thursday nite and the repairmen was promised to come i stayed and waitied - in vain. the didnt show up, addn then i actually didnt have net till yesterday.
meg stayed over thursday nite - before, we went to the movie nite. it was at the americans' apt. it's funny how excited/astonished Meg is at the sight of all these Californians. :) we stayed late and then spent a lotta time with finding the right bus.

friday evening i went to the DAS party - i made the banner! it looked nice - i used the fonts i love the most....i'll get a picture of it and post it...it's easier than to describe it. the party was so-so. the live band was nice. i ended up having a nice conversation with LaciJerry. sanscrit (?), drugs and life. nice. nice. he invited me to a Hungarian director's lecture -- it was today, i didnt go.
then we hung out a bit more with the Americans - or sort of, since the company narrowed down to Zsolt, Sam and me. i ended up getting home around 430. at the bus stop two guys were offering their sexual services - two hours he said - are you kidding me, says i! :) then a different dude wanted to come with me, though he was supposed to go with some other bus. crazy nigh.

Sam and I're gonna be doign a theater/film project. all excited - i should just get myself together and the cast together, and there comes the work! she had her short film shown at Sundance.
she and zsolt are now...well, do it kids! i wish i did!

flirty is just a little boy. thank god Meg saw adn felt the same i thought i could see. therwise i would have felt really stupid. im not yet and completely sure about it being what i think it is, but i can more suely say that this is less of what he says. or, as i suggested earlier, he jsut doent know what's friendship flirty adn waht's flirty-flirty! we'll see. i think though we had this thing today .................tehn asked if its only with boys??!! sweetie pie, yes and no and even so.

i threw in some ideas at our SzHEK meeting today - oops, i have to remember to call Szabolcs Peter for the weekend.
and again, i screwed up the travel palns for Italy - still going, but...well, not for the original price...and of course, it's my fault. but when i was already telling about the price and the days??? why can't she be so defiant and smart then??!!

Bollobas, my adcisor liked my thesis proposal. adn Imre Zoltan's ready to help and give support. it's very relieveing to know. his classes are good. i learn a lot,and as i've found out from matt today - we cover teh same as they do there - though more systematically and through the system.

monday i had a haircut! it looks great. THANK YOU GREATESTEST HARIDRESSER! :) MEG!!!

nad the drama in brooklyn continues. and you know drama is a wide category.