some clips from my trips

check out - cuz it can slightly be seen - the kunst in the Kunsthaus's thingy (wow, to put together this sentence, I really should be proud of my language knowledge)



Graz, Kunsthaus

the famous walls of Tuscany from the car - not an award-winning shot, but is still okay



Walls of Tuscany

one of the best experiments in physics (list put together by some experts recently)



Foucault's pendelum

bah

i havent been hre for a while. and Im not gonna stay for long now either. its not that ii wouldnt haveanytihg to say. oh, gosh, of course i do. right now I havea lot of bad feelings.

i hate being disappointed in people. i truly think that's one of the worst things that can happen.

how good it feels

tonite was nothing really special -- but after a week of solitray confinement, or soemthing close to that - it felt really good to meet with people, to talk with people, to be aorund people, to dance with people, to danc eamong people.

it was nice.

i ahvent' even realized that I wasn't out that much laterly.....weird how easily I can get withdrawn.

oh, yeah..withdrawn. 'from what?" asked Zsolt. "from what not?" I replied.

WCW

The Descent

The descent beckons
as the ascent beckoned.
Memory is a kind
of accomplishment,
a sort of renewal
even
an initiation, since the spaces it opens are new places
inhabited by hordes
heretofore unrealized,
a new kinds—
since their movements
are toward new objectives
(even though formerly they were abandoned).


No defeat is made up entirely of defeat—since
the world it opens is always a place
formerly
unsuspected. A
world lost,
a world unsuspected,
beckons to new places
and no whiteness (lost) is so white as the memory
of whiteness


With evening, love wakens
though its shadows
which are alive by reason
of the sun shining—
grow sleepy now and drop away
from desire

Love without shadows stirs now
beginning to awaken
as night
advances.

The descent
made up of despairs
and without accomplishment
realizes a new awakening:
which is reversal
of despair.
For what we cannot accomplish, what
is denied to love,
what we have lost in the anticipation—
a descent follows,
endless and indestructible

watching TV

okay, so I remember loving "Twin Peaks." I don't really knwo what I loved about it: the music or the creepiness, especially, given the fact the most probably I wasn't supposed to be watching it at al - yet I did (which actually brings me to the realization of the fact that growing up I have actually been watching a lot of "not-for kids" stuff, not like porn, but other adult theme movies and programs. anyways, Twin Peaks is back and now I'm sitting in front of the tube and am watching it. and it's good. and i'm getting all excited about it again - cuz even though I believe to have watched all the episodes, I can't remember the exact details. I can see redness and a scene in a forest, and a small guy creeping me out.

and of course, watching the series wouldn't be a real television experience without the inserted commercials (oh, good old times: years ago this series was broadcast without commercials on the royal tv-channel!!). so, here comes the following commerical. a guy is sneezing. he sits down nezt to a woman in a bus stop. the woman tells him that she was ill too, just like him, the day before, but now she's fine, cuz she took a special medicine. the next clip is about the way this medication helps congestion, clears the throat, etc. afterwards, the same guy is sitting in the same bus stop, now on the seat of the woman. and thena young girl, sneezing and coughing, comes and sits down next to him. the same story continues.
what was "peculiar" about this commerical? well, for the "howit cleans your nose" part they had an animation of clouds and then the clear sky with an image of the sun.

why is the sun wearing glasses??

poems

in preparation to my poetry exam, I have encountered with some very capturing lyircs. I quoted them on my Hungarian blog - in tehir original form. I want to save time for actual studying, so instead of posting them here too....if anyone's interested: fiveca.blogspot.com

my intention is to add comments to all the quotes, or to most of them, describing why i liked them, chose them for posting here, or jsut emphasizing their beauty and giving more praise to them.

 

fooling around with my camera

 

wonder how..

A passion partner is just beginning a long-term seduction.

hor-osc-o-pe

your ego is getting in front of you in accomplishing something.

hmmm......

procrastinating

I finally have made up my mind about this whole pedagogy exam........I'm going to take it. though probably it'd help a little bit if i actually had spent the last five hours reading through my notes.
just an idea!

on some other note: the cultural attache had emailed me back. we may be able to get this whole paln with the alumni done. which makes me wonder: am I in any ways the alumni of Trintrin?? someone told me back in Hartford that now, when I get rich, I can send nice fat checks to the school. we shall see about that! although i am extremely satisfied with my Trin experience, I'd probably would first be financially honoring the schools which made me.

aaaanyways. i need to get back to study.

message

okay, I need to post this here too..tho it really silly, but.but:

so, otday I got a message saying: I've been said to have been living in the States for a while now and fdoing some kinda acting or something.

yup!

it'skindafun.

update

living with the burden of a decision I made but was contemplating about for months and then decided to be smart and all that jazz and also be considerate about my future, but i screwed with nothing all semester and now I'm a little bit fucked (xcuse my language)......or actually, I wouldnt have been fucked that much at all (and this brings up a lotta other questions which also bug my mind recently, but lets leave them for now) had I started to work on things faster, or actually, at all.....but such is life...no, I shouldnt be blaming it on life, such is me......we shall see.


i wish i wouldnt find these stupidities so stupid.

a drinking game

New Years 2006
Originally uploaded by hervibo.

version NY 20.06

New Years 2006

New Years 2006
Originally uploaded by hervibo.

briefing after a visit to the dentist: it's gonna be a long day in . . . . . .

c f an u s

the characters

this is an ever chain-ging list.

wonder if it has any importance at all. well, i guess it does. since, why wouldn't it matter who the actors and actresses are in my life. why wouldn't it matter who the actors and actresses are in their lives. it really does matter.

tempted to write that I am the protagonist of/in my life.

this should be true. this has to be true, otherwise A) I'd be living someone else's life but then we'd have to consider "possession" issues..or B) this is silly.
do I have to list everyone?
can I list everyone?
is there anyone to list?

the places

the home I've never known

liar.