why procrastination is a commonly practiced activity?

i went to a great, great event the other night: it's called raypainting. they project paintings on the walls of buildings. it was great. there was some great musci,traditional food and drinks (well, actually they ran out of waht we call boiled wine, but still), and some great music. - well, i have a friend who'd oppose, but I still think that the African tunes were pretty good in accompanying the lights and jsut the crowd in general.
thanks to Sebi for being a geek...had he not told me about it, I wouldn't have gone. he imed me soon after my mum and I got back form IKEA (which actually had some real good stuff again, as usual). he got me inviting Meg too and there we went. it was a real nice nite out. agosh, we were such kids...

later we bused over to Meg's place. her roommate had soem friedns over. one of them is bit of a jerk, but ..actually, giving some time to think about him and his ways, i have to say, i don't really care.

what I do...or, oh well, I did care about was this talk flirty and i had the yesterday. he is not to be reffered to as flirty any longer tho. he's a kiddo. and his ways to react to my comments the other day just further prove how immature he is. oh, grrrhhh, how frustrated he made me feel and how angry i am at myself for actually having even these intense feelings. it really is not importanta at all - I cant help if he cant understand teasing. i hate being misinterpreted, and tho i offer occasions for that to happe, i know and i should change some things so that this wont happen - but still...what bugs me is that to a stupid sentences of letting the little devils out and work (which was a total compliment towards their enthusiasm), his reaction is what he was. obviously, he has a problem with the age and the maturity....omg! Vivien, stop making an issue out of it! obviously, he is important to me...but not going to be any longer. i should've just gone with my decision from before: namely that this is not what it is.
anyways: tonite we have ameeting, and I have decided to cut back..to cut back on the niceties and the fun-puns. if we're not on the same page, then Im just gonna read on.

otherwise: i should've submitted an online assignment. and then i should've get my content page done for my thesis. then i should've gone an pick up the tickets for the performance. and what else?? i cant even think of all teh shit i'd need to do and im jsut not doing.

btw: listen to Pedro the Liona dn My Morning Jacket, they rock!

i got some good news from Jessie the otehr day...or sorry, im like acting selfish.

anyways....its, again, a pretty fragmented post...why? dunno. trying to be consistent and then things are jsut coming to my mind, and for some reason my hands are just following my mind. its pretty weird, if im paying more attention to it, i can actually realize that im not even thinking ahead but this is my hands writing. cool! and creepy! :)

in the next hour, cuz that's how muchi got left befor i need to leave for work, this is what im going to do:
- since I am not a jerk: Im gonna look for the noted for Adam..and probably I may even put them in my bag and give it to him tonight.
- I finish this post and put soemthing up on the Hungarian site, too, cuz i have uploaded the pictures adn I dont jus t want to leave them hanging there.
- i send an email to Ashlin. im being a slacker in that too. i really should've done it before....however, nobody has gotten back to me with their schedules, so im getting a) pretty pissed, b) dubious about their commitment.
- gonna think...in the meantime and for ever.

friday the powers around felt it important to get a lot of people contact me and let me know that they either miss me or just about stuff in general. which is fine, it was fine..but pretty tough too.im trying hard not to analyzie myself and me being homw and how this whole things comes together. if it comes at all....im feeling fine,. there's nothing wrong with my life here. i just feel like ...i keep myself busy..or at least trying to. or..am i just talking about it??

im looking forward to going to Italy. i have high hopes about what's gonna happen there. maybe nothing extraordinary..especially if i cant get myself understood.. shoot, my italian sucks. its gonna be a lotta fun to attempt to brush it up with Aristide. he's waiting for me to speak English..which is fine, but hopefully i'll have the chance to do work in Italian.