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i really don't have time to post things are not cheap, short or stupid.

i really would have the time to do so, since I stay up late and have, fortunately, some time to be online enough.

i really can't get myself writing. i feel so NOT TOGETHER, or at least my thoughts, that I can't find where to begin, how to continue and where to end.

there are some weird things happening, tho.

first off: my big plan of forgetting him, and leaving my infatuation behind me is sorta working. i think. this is what i'm telling to myself. :) i pretend to be hurt by him every day, tho it's not real hurt....the hurt is deeper, it's coming from somewhere else...from a lomng-long time ago....and i...Well, im honaetly not sure if it's ever gonna be healed. it's not like a cut the scar of which is ............ gotta go now.

let's hope im gonna continue..it would be really good.