some notes from my notebook written in Italy

these notes are pretty disturbing.....

fromItalia – Workhop

Workshop 1 – integrated
Workshop 2 – Dark Side

April Prog: show
22+ 1 (me)
voices/sounds
how different can one be
to bring down the walls

- express self
- create emotions
- political ---- in every day life

realize the boundaries and the every day life and bring down the walls
- how else if it’s not working

Italo Calvino

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Sono qui. Non posso parlare and yet...Im gettin more courageous as the day goes on.

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• no direzione / contribuzioni

giusto

differenzie inevitabili

• camminando – neutrale
• movimento / gesto: con un intenzione ----) sviluppare
• dimostrare & rispondere con un altro gesto ---) seconda di base di stesso interpretazione
• fare qualcosa con la sete ma non siedersi

neutrale//intenzione
entrare il palcoscenico

ARTE BENESSERE

NUOVO / SOCIALE
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I’m thinking in a different language now.
Different from what?
Is it different at all?

There are things I like. And of course, things I don’t. As all all else.

Per esempio, non mi piace questo testo.

E piu difficile per me adesso a scrivere e pensare in inglese perché ora sono in Itali e spendo molto tempo con gli italiani.
Mi preoccupa nonostante che io non posso parlare fluently.

Letting go – easy advice. Easy to give, easy to take, if you are preoccupied with the very ?it? that should be let go.
Who were the ones I let go? Haha…..
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Is it easier to be creative when you are depressed?
Non lo so.
Non lo so.
Nem tudom.

…the concept of having many languages to speak but not having my words heard is……is rather mysterious per me.

Confused………..I am confused.

Voglio fare troppe cose.

I had no experience. What’s so

What happened?
Why and how did I let things happen?

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FRAGMENTED.
DISLOCATED.
INSPIRED.
SEEKING.
MISUNDERSTOOD. ---) NOT UNDERSTOOD
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Today I have written a shitload of stupidity nella mia blog.

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I'm cold. I’m cold. Recently I’m cold many times. This coldness is rarely a physical one.

This sentence is bad.

I have no fears now.
For a long time.

Scattered.
Fragmented.

CAN’T concentrate.
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CONFUSION
EMPTINESS
LEVITATION
LIGHT
NO FEARS
DIRECTION
SHOCK?
NON-UNDERSTANDING
LAUGHTER
SORRY / REGRET
SADNESS
ANGER
JEALOUSY
HONESTY
FEAR
ACCEPTED FEAR
LONELINESS
EMPTINESS
COMPLETE

SEEKER

I hate and I already lied.

It bugs me to confess that he had right when he described me like that.
A DESPERATE SEEKER
With all the possible
POSITIVE & NEGATIVE
Qualities / meanings of it.

Bugs me that he could see & verbalize it & bugs me that it bugs me
That now , or ever since rather, I get to this conclusion
What is it? How to deal with it?
“deal” with it at all?
ACCEPT! YEAH, actually is accepted but then.

The scholarship is a great opportunity but also a burden
BEC. YOU HAVE TO COME BACK.
Not necessarily to Hungary ---)
but life

GROWING UP. GROW UP.

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I’m drawing lines. Lines that are directed towards something. Interesting to see that my lines don’t contradict each other. Which I do. Do i?

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Live Yor Own Life.
Thoughts about art.

Communicating meaning, message

Educating people __art not to descend to the level of people, but people to be educated

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what's gonna happen tomorrow?
what's gonna happen tomorrow?