Hungarian Hallowwen

As part of our uptakeen duty, we organized a Halloweeneish get tpogether for those of the American Studies major. Well, anyone else could come - we're not excluding anyone. :)

The party stareted at a small pub, called Vittula...it has no meaning...or not that I'd know of. It was pretty mellow, talking, sitting around...but it was nice. Juci made two cakes for the occasion, given we announced the competition of teh costumes. Well, not too many people showed up in actual costumes, but we did manage to declare a winner and a "loser". then we moved on to another place, called Picasso Point. actually, its pretty lame that there is nothing picasso-ish at the place...or should it be its advantage? dunno. all is all, it sorta has become a regular place for the company. they have karaoke, which the ppl seem to like a lot. this time i spared myself (yes, myself) from singing.
it's a shame tho that they close this early.
the night was runnig nicely - except for a couple of small things. By the end, I got extremely emotional..poor Sebi needed to collect my pieces afterwards. we had a nice walk-and-talk. about..about basically nothing. but i hadn't been crying for a while then..it was good. a lot of stress, a lot of pain, a lot of dunnos came up with those tears. but...sometimes I'm really sorry for not being capable of sharing the real deep with people. i prefer to keep it to myself. and then its eating me from the inside. or, or not really eating, it just stays there and builds up this pile of disappointment, anger and frustration. i managed to do this on and on for years with out having any problems...and then thank you America! :) it's a lil bit of a lie, i know. but i did had a better insight to what's going on in me with me over this past year. i don't knwo how it happened, i dont know why it happened, but eventually i do like it happened.
and then i also wonder whether it's actually possible to share...does any one actually ever shares what and how they really feel about certain things, situations?? not that i'd think that like i'd be lying. no, its not about the truth value of what you're saying, but whether you're actually saying ever to anyone about what you think?! do we say these things at least to ourselves?? well, okay..we are not our parrots. if and when we think them, we already have thought them, so it's basically nonsense.

anyways, i was really looking forward to Italy. I got home from the party at 4:30 adn I was to leave for the airport at 6. I can tell you: teh flight time from Budapest to Bologna is not too long!